Why is gaining weight so easy and losing it so hard? I did well all day today until I was in the kitchen, making rice and beans for dinner, and I ate a few pieces of cheese, pepperoni, and crackers. It all happened so fast. Such a quick, small, seemingly insignificant snack ruined my calorie intake for the day. Why couldn't I have more self-control and wait for dinner?
So then after dinner I left for pilates. I had to leave early, because my husband & kids needed me out of the house so they could work on a special, secret birthday surprise. I stopped at the mall to buy myself a birthday present. I've been wanting this body cream for a few years, but could never bring myself to spend $20 on lotion, when $6 Aveeno works perfectly fine. But I decided to splurge. By the time I finished at Bath & Body Works, I only had 5 minutes to get to pilates. The class gets crowded, and if you come in late you have to go to the head of the class and be in front where everyone can watch how much you suck at pilates. So I bagged it. And I walked around Sears, trying to find an Elmo shirt that didn't cost $15 or that wasn't for boys. By the time I finished at Sears, the smell of the body cream that I put on my hands was giving me a headache, so I'll have to return my own birthday present. And then I went to Genuardi's to buy the ingredients for my birthday lunch. And then I came home to my husband and said, "I suck" and he said, "No you don't, you went to the gym!" and then I had to tell him the whole story I just told you, including the part about the Elmo shirt, which he totally didn't care about, and then he gave me a hug and said "You don't suck" and then I had a cup of tea and watched Modern Family.
And there you have it.
Please don't be so hard on yourself. Although food is not my issue, I'm used to beating myself for one thing or another (women are good at doing that). What if we instead treated ourself with kindness? The way we should treat others but so often neglect with ourselves? So you missed Pilates - you had a nice outing by yourself - nothing wrong with that!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Tonya! You're right, we are good at beating ourselves up! I did have a nice outing... it was fun to be at the mall without the kids :-)
ReplyDeleteAnd that's why Rob is awesome. And he's right, you don't suck.
ReplyDeleteditto to Rachael and Tonya! And way to bring back Head of the Class. I totally forgot about that show!
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